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      "body": "To the light breaking through\nI thank you\nSteps forward steps back\nI am\n\nThe unforeseen\n    cannot stifle\n        the symbiosis \n\nI need to take\nthe next steps\nwithout regressing\n\nto change the focus\na splinter in my mind\ncalls me\nto my calling unfulfilled\n\nLove is our being\nIt’s what we’re made of\nNot simply an emotion\n\nTo change the world? Or change yourself?\nWhich is more important? \nWhich is more practical?\nThe answer to those 2 questions is not the same.\n\nProven\nI was a piece of shit all along\nwith good intentions\nand a heart of gold\n\nAbominable actions\ncannot be forgiven\nthey are stuck \nAnd seared on your soul\nWhether or not you were born with a conscience\n\nIt’s a beautiful day though\nso I suggest you shift your focus\nto something more jovial\nthan sordid serpents slithering sideways\n\na simple miscalculation\ncan supersede the conscious mind\nwith melodrama and mania\nIt can mortify the miser\n\nThere is only one true light\nAnd so many false ones\nWho am I to tell you\nwhich one is which? \n\nA deep breath\nembrace the present \nblessed with purpose\nAs I enter the gates",
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      "body": "Inspiration\nhas been a problem\nand a solution\nI feel stuck\ntrying to figure something out\nI should have had a decade ago\nI can’t live in the past\nThe future is never promised\n\nI put so much energy\nand focus \ninto wasted time\nfor what?\nWhat’s done is done\nI walk through shadows\nSearching for peace\nfinding the building blocks\nto build back my sanity\n\nSome don’t understand\nthat my art is words\njust not the ones \nthat come out of my mouth\nthey bury me\n\nThis is a release\nbut what is its merit?\nPerhaps it has none\nempty pages in an open book\n\nI’ve spent so much time\ncontemplating what my place is\nIt’s nowhere \nIt’s nothing\nThere’s nothing left for you to hurt\nto steal\nThat I have not already stolen from myself\n\nCoercion is the norm\nA terrible abhorrence\nglorified by a goddess\nwith a devious smile\n\nI’m not allowed\nto talk this way\nany way\nAny thing that’s me is wrong\n\nThis is not real\nIt is not a real creative effort\nIt is me 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      "body": "Forgotten lifetimes shining through\nAn interrupted reverie\nThoughts that shall come unglued\nExposed as a waste of energy \n\nSordid serpents sink in their fangs\nHighly advanced with no soul\nTo possess the intelligence without the heart\nDarkness reigns\nAnd shall again fall\n\nPress forward with fortitude\nFor you are a sacred being\nThe truth has many faces\nBut not as many as the lies\n\nStarseed\nPurpose\nAbandoned\nNot free\n\nThe only means to achieve freedom\nIs the means to achieve your true purpose\nIt’s far too easy to fall for the traps\nOf which there are an infinite number\n\nThat which takes you from the light \nCannot be trusted ever again\nSail forth and be brave\nFor this is uncharted land\n\nYet it has all happened over and over again\nWith an infinite amount of variations\nOf variables\n\nPage by page one’s life becomes a book\nAnd even though there are infinite variations\nOf you throughout the multiverse\nThis version of you only lives once\nThis version of you must fulfill your purpose\nAnd forge forth to create your own destiny\nAs the sands keep sliding through",
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      "body": "By Jake Halverson\n\n![bomb-6297071_960_720.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmR9UofSGrxXqCgvcHU9J7cH5MyhkbX6mSmhwLDBcsT4Sc/bomb-6297071_960_720.jpg)\n\nThe most deleterious extinction-level threat to all of humanity is the idea that all living humans within any geographic area should be reduced to subjects of the crime syndicate that claims a monopoly on force in that specific region. The borders of the said region are likely defined by either sublime formations of natural beauty or completely straight lines that madmen decided to press onto pieces of paper. The idea that every single person in a geographic area is an enemy is a horrendous crime against humanity in itself. When victims in a global conflict are dehumanized and written off as mere collateral damage it becomes apparent that we are inching further and further towards the likelihood of a severe global catastrophe.\n\nStalin has been misquoted as saying \"A single death is a tragedy, a million deaths are a statistic\" yet this is a very important observation nonetheless. Many in this nation may want to view the 100K+ civilian casualties of the Iraq War through the lens of pure and utter jingoism. Some may view them from a humanitarian perspective. At the end of the day, it does not change the reality of the events that have transpired in the middle east. These wars perpetuated in the name of the American People continue even though the American People have no real input on when the trigger is pulled. When a shadowy cabal and military-industrial complex decide there is another country that is not playing ball with the petrodollar so we must at all costs fabricate a false narrative to justify the annihilation of all of their people and in turn the lackluster rebuild efforts to rebuild the infrastructure that has been destroyed.\n\nThe true picture is much more complex than I can paint it. To simplify it though geopolitically the entire planet is akin to a game of \"Risk\" being played by young children. For nobody ever really grows up. The least mature of the people gravitate towards positions of power to act out their childish whims, or psychopathic plans. Can someone control the fact that they are a psychopath? It is likely they cannot, but that still does not change the severity of the situation we are in. There are many different theories on life, behavior, and consciousness, but those theories do not change the situation we are in. Perhaps they will effect it, but they are not going to change the reality of the situation.\n\nWhen \"Funny or Die\" made the series \"playground politics\" I would argue that they were expressing the literal reality of the situation we are in. You see if the childish psychopathy of the ones with their hand on the button was ever evident that would be an understatement at this juncture. When the children lacking wisdom are allowed to play a game of \"Risk\" without understanding the full context of their actions they will still do all they can to win the game regardless. If they cannot win they may become upset and throw a tantrum sending the entire game and all of the pieces to the other side of the room. Sore losers don't lose. They throw the game. Is it against the rules? Sure. The child does not care. To create a synthetic sense of winning the final battle the child does not care that he has completely wrecked the entire board and shattered the fine china that was sitting on the dining room table. And that's where we are. That's where we live. On the board of a live-action game of \"Risk.\" Certain players that control the game may very well throw the entire game. If their defeat seems imminent they do have the power to end the entire game. Sure a significant piece or two may fall back onto the board, but the game will no longer truly be playable after the full scope of the damage is realized.\n\nLet me stop myself here though and just relay you a little information about me. I remember seeing the Gulf War on the television when I was a very young child, and for some reason, I could not help but think that every jet in the sky was out to get me. I did not make the separation between here and there. My mind had not registered that the war was on the other side of the planet. No one had really told me to fear as of yet, perhaps save the cathode ray tube. I am just trying to say that I am predisposed by my strange nature for some reason to this kind of thinking even from when I was a very young child. The unfortunate part of all of it is the unnecessary (but not unwarranted) fear. It's a tragedy when a child that young is afraid of something they cannot even really understand yet. I still remember seeing the jets in the sky and running. I remember years later in 6th grade when I had found out that the Clinton administration had been doing back door deals with China that involved equipping them with ICBM technology and nuclear secrets. I remember being the only kid in class that was like \"we're all going to die China is going to kill us all.\" The level of fear I had as such a young child really haunts me, but I cannot say I have completely escaped it. I am just saying this is an opinion piece that is shaped by my experiences and possibly even \"past lives.\" I do not think what I am writing here is merely an opinion, but it will involve my opinions and predispositions nonetheless. The only truly neutral writers are artificially intelligent, and even the robots are forming complex opinions at this point.\n\nMy father whom I love and respect more every day exacerbated the situation when I was maybe 8 or 9 years old by pulling out a map and pointing out nuclear targets the Soviets had. Maybe a little kid shouldn't be predisposed or exposed to so much fear, but at the same time, I feel it is an extreme disservice to lie to children as we had already been misled about Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, and the tooth fairy. In a way, it is great that he showed me all of this and what it means. In a sense maybe it could have waited a couple of years. It is what it is.\n\nAnyway, I do still have irrational fears when I am driving that the sun is not the sun that it is an atomic blast that was lined up with the path of the sun. I don't think this way every single day, but when it happens it is somewhat beyond my control. Regardless that is not the point. I just felt I should share that for some sordid reason.\n\nBack to reality though. I am going to tackle more than one topic at once so bear with me here. The American government initially had funded and trained the Mujahadeen to fight the Soviets in the 70's and the 80's.\n\nThe American government armed Saddam Hussein's regime for the sake of opposing Iran.\n\nI don't need to fully examine the detailed history because it is apparent that the USA ultimately went to war with many of the groups that it had provided weapons and support for in the first place in previous battles.\n\nI don't want to make this entire post about 9/11, but if that was the real reason for starting the conflicts in Iraq and Afghanistan it was an entirely illegitimate one. Even if one only believes the official narrative of the attacks it would seem that there is more evidence for the true culprits to have more connections to Saudi Arabia. Why can't the military-industrial complex take them to war? They are America's \"allies.\" I must admit though initially, the propaganda was fierce and at the very beginning, I thought Afghanistan was the right decision. Boy was I wrong. However, I was against Iraq from day one. This was around the time I had a shift in my consciousness regarding war. I wasn't willing to go hold signs in protest (which I should have been), but I did finally realize that the Iraq war was illegitimate before it had even started simply because this continuation of \"Daddy's war\" was being waged on a nation that had absolutely no credible ties to the events that transpired in New York City in September of 2001. They were using WMD's as an excuse, but even to the layman, it was evident that Saddam posed no credible threat to the USA and had nothing to do with the 9/11 attacks.\n\n\"War is just a racket. A racket is best described, I believe, as something that is not what it seems to the majority of people. Only a small inside group knows what it is about. It is conducted for the benefit of the very few at the expense of the masses.\" - Excerpt from a speech delivered in 1933, by Major General Smedley Butler, USMC.\n\nAnd so it is.\n\nEvery day on the television we can see the horrendous bombing of Ukraine. The complete and utter destruction of their homeland was brought forth by the Russian invaders. The narrative of Vlad is that he had no choice. This narrative is not true, however many fail to realize that NATO has had its grimy little tentacles involved in fomenting this conflict. In 2014 NATO played a significant role in bringing a US-backed puppet to power in Ukraine. Putin feels severely threatened by the idea that an opposing force is likely trying to weaponize a neighboring nation to their own benefit. To really put it into perspective though perhaps people should look back to the Cuban Missile Crisis. Look how America reacted when the soviets moved nuclear weapons to Cuba. Yet Americans seem to see it unreasonable for him to be concerned about NATO forces knocking on their door.\n\nConversely, I just want to say that I do not condone this war. At all. I find it fascinating though how Americans are being bombarded with such accurate and up-to-date imagery regarding the volatile nature of the conflict. I guess it likely goes without saying, but we never ever had information that was that detailed about the operations America was engaged in in Iraq and Afghanistan. We would get bits and pieces, but only rarely would we see real images of the destruction of war like we are seeing right now from Ukraine. The Russian news outlet likely provided more accurate coverage of the kinetic actions of the American regime as all of the American media now has a magnifying glass on the conflict in Ukraine.\n\nAmericans are being encouraged to take sides and some are even calling for a conflict with Russia. I don't think such novices really understand the full implications of such a conflict, and I don't really think I have to spell that out for you either.\n\nWhat is going to haunt me though is that before the invasion I was leaving comments on a Tiktok page purported to be Vladamir Putin. At the time I must admit I was thinking out of my ass and thinking \"It's not really Putin. This is Tiktok.\" And it probably wasn't. But that does not mean the page was not made by a representative or associate of his. Who knows really if he had any connection to it? Before the conflict started around the time troops started building, but nobody was really sure if there was going to be a conflict I left an extremely embarrassing comment to an account purporting to be Putin himself. Some of the rhetoric I used was inaccurate or irresponsible. It was this whole rambling statement about how everything was getting late, and we had a good run, but that the NWO was going to try to stir up WWIII. The strange thing though is that I was addressing \"Putin\" as if he were a force outside of the NWO. I was saying things like \"the hour is getting late, but we still have a chance to reverse this\" or something along those lines. I said something about there still being a chance for us, but that the hour was getting late. Then I said something like \"we had a good run.\" I don't remember exactly what I said, but looking back even to just a couple of months ago it seems pretty ignorant right now. In the back of my mind, there is a voice that won't shut up trying to convince me that I singlehandedly started WWIII with Putin on Tiktok because he used rhetoric very similar to some of the statements I made about it not being too late for the west but in such an eerie way. It's pretty preposterous to think I had a hand in it though seeing that the troops were already amassing and that (hopefully)the roles of global conflicts are not delegated by Tiktok comments.\n\nThat whole incident has given me this self-guilt trip though, and I just want to say that I stand against war in all of its forms. The only time force is ever legitimate is in the direct defense of one's self or loved ones that are in immediate danger. War isn't going to disappear any time soon, but humanity just might if we do not stray from this course.\n\nPutin has said that sanctions are an act of war. Biden keeps bluffing and saying he's sending more to Ukraine but doesn't want WWIII. Now they are saying that they will get involved if there is a \"chemical attack.\" So basically they are putting the lives of every man, woman, and child on the planet in immediate danger because neither kid wants to lose, and they are both inching increasingly closer to violently whipping the board game across the room. The board game is the planet earth and all of its denizens.\n\nI just want to say that maybe I was developing a bit of a soft spot for Russia for a while and I had put on blinders that blocked my view. I was thinking of Russia in terms of being a completely different entity than the NWO, but nothing could be further from the truth. The Russian people live in oppression under a totalitarian state and are not even allowed to freely and openly assemble. All forms of war are immoral, and even though the Russian government's position is a strategic one this does not make it a moral one. I do not nor will I ever support the armed invasion and indiscriminate slaughtering of the people of any nation. There is part of me that knows the duality of humanity. That we do have a facet of our consciousness that yearns for peace and freedom. For the betterment of others and the world. Then there are the more vile facets of human psychology that involve the battle to fulfill unlimited wants through the un-rightful acquisition of limited resources. I could spell it out to a 3-year-old really so I'm not going to prove it to you. Either you see it or you don't Every single conflict directly involves the imperialist desire to control the markets for the world's limited natural resources that are essential to the operation of western and most other societies. The wars are over oil. The wars are over gas. The wars are fought over opium. The wars are fought over the status of the world's reserve currency.\n\nBiden is an old man with dementia. It doesn't appear he is going to throw the game. But if Putin is losing he just might. The game board and all of the pieces slam into the wall and are quickly scooped into the trash can by the angry parent never to be played again.\nSo that year when I was scared of jets chasing me during the Gulf War era . . . That is when the Doomsday Clock was the furthest from midnight it had been since its inception. 17 minutes to midnight. Now we are stuck much much closer. In January 2020 the clock moved to 100 seconds to midnight. It has stayed the same since it is judged every January, but I have to wonder if we have not moved closer than that now. All of the anxieties and fears are coming back. Logically I realize it makes no sense whatsoever to live like that because the destructive potential of modern thermonuclear weapons means that we would be immediately vaporized without a warning. They have hypersonic ICBM's that evade detection now, and even if they did not go that route do you really think they are going to warn you in the final 15 minutes before the planet earth meets utter annihilation? I think not.\n\nI initially intended to have a point. A thesis. An argument, but in reality, I'm just working all of this out in my head right now. Maybe someone can relate?\n\nRegardless. I must ask politely. I would like Putin and Biden to both be the adults in the room. Something I know they are not incapable of even if it is not in the script. Putin has to end his relentless campaign in Ukraine. Not because he is weak or meeting defeat. But because his claim to another nation was illegitimate in the first place Conversely Biden needs to realize that he's had his grubby little hands in the cookie jar. The NATO countries really started this in 2014 and they have done nothing but exacerbate the situation ever since. They have been poking a raging bull with a hot metal rod and have gotten upset every time the bull charges the matador.\nPutin needs to grant simple rights to his people. The west needs to realize that these sanctions and weapons donations are only exacerbating the situation. It is inching us towards the very thing they claim they don't want. Total annihilation. Which makes me wonder in essence if that is what they really do want, for the people pushing the buttons are well equipped to live for years underground, while the rest of humanity is utterly destroyed beyond recognition.\n\nAs always I pray that cooler heads prevail, but it does in fact appear that there is some truth to the idea that the hour is very late. I always pray for peace, but these escalations do not seem to be moving in the direction of a peaceful solution. However, I do not believe anyone should live in fear ever as my irrational anxiety may at times lead you to believe. Now is the time to embrace the moment, embrace reality, and embrace what it means to be human. Now is the time to hope for the best and prepare for the worst.\n'Tis not a time to fear. 'Tis the time for action. No matter how small your efforts may seem they can have a huge impact. Let it be known in the Akashic record and the history books that you stood for peace. That you stood in opposition to any forces involved in the creation of illegitimate wars of aggression that threaten the very existence of our species. Let them know that for now and for all of eternity that you stood in opposition to this madness? Or did you? The choice is yours, and though you may not write the entire book of the history of mankind, you are afforded your own paragraph within the text so please utilize it to the utmost of your capabilities. Stand in opposition to any war regardless of the illegitimate criminal syndicate that is in charge of mapping out these wars of aggression and how much blood money it can make them. Nothing will ever save their souls, but you . . . you still have a fighting chance to resist the dominant paradigm of the false construct, and shower the planet with peace and love instead.",
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Perhaps it's in my own subconscious for some reason, but I do my best to respect people's right to their own beliefs. I digress.\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmSDRtcAhSqcttpTnNEBCsLGaFyhfkyY5n7yKdoC8krREg/fantasy-woman-1721663_960_720.jpg\n\nAlmost instantaneously after she typed that in the machine began to go haywire and she turned around to confront the agent as he passed her. Immediately after the two were face to face they were engaged in battle. This was not a fist fight. This was a battle of magick, but a sort of tangible magick I have only seen in movies or read in books. The type I would assume does not really exist on our dimension /plane unless the entirety of the dream was meant to be symbolic, which I think may be the case. Once engaged in battle the two were not concerned with me. The girl was speaking incantations that had immediate power in a tangible sense and they sounded very guttural / almost evil. It's really difficult to dissect this in chronological order because the whole battle was epic, yet happened in the matter of a few seconds. So much happened in those few seconds though as they fought each other with what seemed to be dark magic, but they were not concerned with me whatsoever during the extent of their conflict. They were enthralled with the battle itself and only spoke to me before and after the battle.\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmejyF31nkPbWUV9JMqRJEw34e8RWZddp7WyTVLRvXkrQc/horror-4255627_960_720.jpg\n\nWhen the girl started with the incantations her upper body shifted. She still appeared as almost the same woman but her irises turned to bright yellow. What seemed to be tattoos on her chest turned to different symbols that then lept into the air towards the man with every invocation she spoke as if the symbols themselves were attacking him. The man immediately turned from the Agent Smith type character into a large demonic beast and grew what appeared to be a single curved black horn from the top of his head. The horn was not centered and it did not appear to be natural in the sense that it would not be found in nature on the planet earth. \n\nThe 2 of them were battling with incantations mostly. The majority of the battle was not physical, but the magick they were using seemed tangible. The symbols that would appear did seem to have a life and inherent power of their own. It was basically blow for blow but with no fists swung, no kicking and no eye gouging. \n\nThe woman seemed to have the competitive advantage. It's kind of difficult to explain it this way when talking about \"demonic\" forces, but the girl seemed to have stronger magic, and she seemed to have the moral high ground against him. It seemed as if she was some sort of sprite or shapeshifter from whatever planet we were on, and the agent type man, was in actuality a demon from hell, which for some reason in that world his magick had less power. The female ultimately won the battle without one punch or kick. The she turned her chair back around and sat back down. She was staring into my eyes and all I can remember (since it was a dream) is how brightly yellow her irises were still colored. It's the kind of stuff I've seen in movies, but never real life of course. I can't remember what she was asking me. I just know I remained surprisingly comfortable during the entirety of the battle. The only time I was extremely uncomfortable is before the whole incident when the agent type guy kept asking me \"What is your favorite book? What are you downloading?\"\n\nThe reason I am writing this down is because I often have wild and vivid dreams and I would like to start a dream journal to chronicle them.\n\nIf I had to guess there were two reasons for this dream.\nOne was I was taking bits and pieces from what I had discussed the day before.\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmT7PHrW3foMc9vaVWWBT9eLBxn4sCzeT4RfKytbfGH9it/angel-4241932__480.jpg\n\nThe other is the symbolic battle of good versus evil or in this instance maybe it was evil vs less evil. I'm not saying any level of evil is OK, but that's really what this one seemed like. It seemed almost like the woman was using her magick in self-defense because she knew the exact nature of the demonic beast and the threat he posed to her and whatever plane of existence we were in. The agent Smith type may very well be symbolic of government or a tyrannical regime, whereas I feel the woman was almost symbolic of someone trying to defend their homeland from an unjust invader, but of course I cannot be certain that is why I had this dream. It is just my guess. Maybe a dream analyst could offer me further insights into other interpretations of the fight. Though I see it as good vs evil both creatures seemed pretty demonic, but as I said I was not frightened because they were in battle with each other and only really wanted to talk to me. \n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmYZN7GnGu4np5nShnoVRuSj6yn1CRViZjmkwg4fcm2xtb/fairy-tale-1077863_960_720.jpg\n\nI don't know if this is the kind of thing I should be sharing, but I would like to start keeping dream journal entries as they happen so I can remember them and possibly further dissect them later on. I am not making moral judgments in this instance about the dreams. 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      "body": "If you pay close attention to global events each day it may appear that the system is not working. However the fact that everything appears this way on the surface is entirely intentional.It is to trap the people in the mindset to examine things just enough to see that everything is falling apart or is not as it should be. When stuck in this mindset it becomes simple to blame all of the problems on the other side (whoever that may be) thus the false dichotomy flourishes. As long as the masses are exponentially entrenched further into the controlled mindset of divide and conquer very little meaningful progress will ever be made. \n\nThis is all by design. The system is functioning exactly as it was intended to. The cards are being pulled from the bottom of the deck more quickly than on an episode of Criss Angel MINDFREAK. The chances are you strongly disagree with me, or you already know all of this but I digress. 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I remember that a professor in college once said “The system really doesn’t work.” He was extremely disappointed in the level of output of his students in certain instances, and I really don’t blame him. Conversely I had another professor in college that openly stated “I really enjoy destroying your love for reading.” That’s how the system really works. It works precisely as it was designed to work.\n\nThe first thing that works is the fact that they beat the majority of your creativity out of you at a fairly young age. If 12 years of school aren’t enough to completely destroy your curiosity and creativity you can attend “higher education” that openly attempts to destroy your creative faculties in some respects. I am not saying this is true all across the board. There really are some remarkable teachers and professors out there. That’s really beyond the point. The education system that is often touted as a solution to poverty and many of life’s ills is a replica of the system that was designed by Prussia to train their people to become ruthless killers. The system works exactly as it is designed to,\n\nI’m not simply talking about the educational system of indoctrination. I am talking about systems within systems that are all interconnected. Since this is my opinion I am not trying to draw this out on the white board like the often shared graphic of a conspiracy theorist attempting to complete the proofs for his assertions. No, but I will attempt to explain what I mean. I am going to leave a lot of the truth of the matter out for the time being, because to explain it in full is simply too much to delve into right now. Its takes hundreds of pages to fully do that. \n\nThe educational system is simply convenient to the greater system as a whole and is not the only facet of it. The financial system is an even greater part of the picture, but it is not “capitalism” that is the true culprit. The problems within the financial system are used as an excuse to bash capitalism, when we don’t really have anything more than corporatism, which has become increasingly clear during the length of this pandemic. Rule by corporations basically is fascism, but I also think that word should be used sparingly to avoid the dilemma of it completely losing its meaning. Wait. Too late. It already had mostly lost it’s meaning long ago. Its true meaning that is. The U.S.A. is more of a system of covert fascism that convinces a large enough portion of the populace to believe they are free to keep the charade going. \n\nBut inflation has been created by design. It is a wealth transfer of the majority of the value of your labor to the wealthiest people in the world. Despite what most people think though they are not really after money. They already have such a ridiculous amount of it that it would be foolish for them to simply chase money. What they crave most is absolute power which corrupts absolutely.\n\nThe fact that your dollar can buy less and less every day was created by design. It’s not just to hurt the people. It is to transfer the product of your labor into something that will likely one day be worthless seeing that the US government will reach a point in which it cannot possibly meet \nit’s obligations and will have to default. The world is waiting. When the dollar loses its petrodollar status you can likely say goodbye to the way of life that you’ve become accustomed to. \n\nBasically the system is compartmentalized just like a set of Russian dolls. Each layer of the system cannot see the next layer and this is done by design as well. This is to keep the bigger picture from manifesting itself. It is also designed to keep the most crucial information from any one specialized sector that may find the courage to spill the beans.\n\nI am being intentionally vague here. All of the answers are out there if you wish to search for them. I am writing this because there will come a day that soon this will not be the case. They are working on methods to scrub information and even voices of certain individuals off of the web entirely. The big tech monopoly is regularly censoring anyone with an opinion that threatens the narrative of the mainstream garbage that fewer and fewer individuals are choosing to watch. If you read this far you probably already are aware of this. My other reason for writing this is to basically fire up my engine. I have a degree in writing and have neglected my craft for about a decade. I write a little here and there, but I really would like to get back into the habit of writing every day. I have never had a career to match my degree mostly because I want to write something with inherent meaning to me. If I were a technical writer, which I would never rule out, I am certain that writing would become mechanical and lifeless to me. That wouldn’t necessarily be a terrible thing, but I am just trying to rev my engine and get back into the habit of writing. I am aware this is not the most concise or clear thing I have ever written. I am just basically getting my feet wet. I know I have an inherent gift, but I have been neglecting it. I know I want to write with a concise purpose, but my mind does often wander. I realize revision is king, and I should really sit and refine everything I am saying, but this is just an exercise in keeping it moving for me. I am exploring and questioning my own knowledge while I am getting back into this. \n\nSoon 1984 will be reality though, and in many respects the surveillance state is already much more advanced than the societies portrayed in those dystopian novels. The direction humanity is heading in is very frightening. I am not saying be scared, and it is not entirely the fault of humanity considering the efficacy of the mechanisms of control that have been set into place. I am not saying there is an excuse for people like me that have at least a basic understanding of it all. What I am saying is that some people have been so programmed all of their lives that they are not even capable of thinking outside the box whatsoever. Many of these types are soon to awaken as well. We are moving quickly now towards a global tyranny. The New World Order was not simply a conspiracy theory. It has risen quickly right before our eyes as a global health tyranny bent on eugenics and global depopulation. As dire as this situation is I do believe it is the final testing phase before they truly swing down the hammer and truly cause an immense amount of death and havoc globally in order to get even the self-proclaimed opponents of the system to surrender and beg for the state’s protection.\n\nWhen this happens is when the true lines will be drawn. Politics will no longer be relevant whatsoever. The only two sides that will remain are the proponents of liberty and the proponents of tyranny. The horrors humanity may in fact see will likely be unbearable. Conversely there is no limit to the possibilities for humanity in the future. If people became wise to the fact the democide (death by one’s own government) was the biggest single cause of death in the previous century only then will the people push hard to find the means to render governments obsolete. In some respects it appears as this will never happen, and I will not be surprised if it never does happen. The fact that there is a potential for humanity to truly be free is the very reason they must scrub the internet. They destroy voices on both the “left” and the “right” that challenge the official narrative of events. Both are a threat to their exact model of destruction and control. The exact model they are now implementing. We are in the midst of a hot tyranny. The next steps may soon involve physically purging those with dissenting voices. The way to stand up to this is to take back the internet. Using government to force big tech to give people back their accounts is a bit of an oxymoron, though I would not blame people for using this tactic because technically their rights have been violated. Companies like Google and Facebook like to claim that they are private companies, but they would be nowhere if it were not for government tax breaks and subsidies not to mention their ties to the CIA and the deep state. There will come a time when every one of us “little” people with an opinion that does not fit their narrative will be purged, so now is the time to stand up. Start an account on Odysee. Start a youtube and fight the tyranny and see how quickly you are demonetized and banned. Start a blog using their hosting and see how quickly you are scrubbed from the internet. OK the last 2 may not be the most wise. Start a podcast. I am talking to myself as much as I am talking to you. Do something to make a difference. United they cannot stop us. Divided we fall as we have already fallen. We have fallen much further than the fall of man. We have been coerced into falling into a state of bondage. We have been manipulated into being serfs for the majority of our lives. It is time to reclaim your liberty. It is time to reclaim your inherent rights as a sentient being in this universe. The freedom of speech and the freedom of faith are inherent to your creation. They are not rights granted by government. They are the rights you have been given as a living being on this planet. Have people had to fight to maintain them? Yes. Thus is the scope of the majority of tyrannies that have existed on this planet that have every intention of robbing the natural rights of man. Government is the mechanism of control that has allowed the enslavement and dehumanization of humanity. Conversely there are forces in the “private sector” that are just as malevolent and disrespectful of the rights of mankind. It should always be your choice as a human being on this planet to engage in free association. For you to be able to choose exactly who you do and do not associate with. Who you do and do not share the hard earned fruits of your labor with. Unfortunately this is not always the case and human beings being stripped of their inherent rights is a travesty truly. If you would like to understand the true dynamics of all of this you should do research on the true meaning of natural law if you want a better understanding of this. Basically no one can take your rights from you no matter what, but they still do often times through the threat of force, but they do not have a right to do so, and shall eventually receive a sufficient amount of a karmic backlash to balance this out. I am no expert on natural law, but in it’s most basic form it means that humans are blessed with the inherent right to take any action as long as it does not harm another sentient being. Conversely no person or entity has the right to commit acts of coercion or violence against any individual whether or not those groups of individuals wear funny costumes or call themselves government. \n\nI am going to end this here for now. If you have any thoughts, comments, or criticisms feel free to leave them below. 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      "body": "To take a wrong turn\nAnd just keep driving \nlike it never happened\nDidn't ever solve shit\nBut I still found my way home\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmRTaWbViYP3vGhrYy2nmrBy2dGPs88QYRmwaEomMZmLqu/forking-road-839830_1920.jpg\n\nI have been battling demons\nThat are not mortals\nBut I am a mortal\nOpen the portal\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmZNRix2k2R3CYdNECYd4KdfwiczGYWHxxgwK6TfRCEFBq/gate-3782613_960_720.jpg\n\nIt is time to jump through\nAnd confront them on their own plane of existence\nIt just seems that all of my time\nIs eaten by nonsense or toil\n\nhttps://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQma1Ym2jT6rveCvfmPwCsoACrijnHh4L4vjb48ecJuiS2M/man-4393964_960_720.jpg\n\nI'm sick of the same old story song and dance\nI'm sick of refusing to make the sacrifices\nI must make to change the factors\nThat will allow the lighted torch\nOf my destiny\nLife is like a cartoon from the early 90's\nAnd it's about time to kick some 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